It seems lately I have been reminicent when it comes to Collin. I'm not sure why. Maybe it is because he is turning 2 soon and it seems like he's not my little helpless baby anymore. Everytime I look at him he seems so big. When I check on him at night he takes up so much more space in his crib. When I change his diaper he barely fits on the changing table. In a way it makes me really sad but in other ways it makes me happy because I see all of the new things he is learning. It seems all along he has been learning new things everyday but for some reason it's like an explosion all of the sudden. I love that he is able to express himself and I really love that he is very affectionate and loving. It pulls at my heart everytime that I hear "I love you my mama". He calls us "my mama" and "my daddy" most of the time. Otherwise, he just yells "MMMAAAA" at the top of his lungs!
A friend at work makes calendars from pictures that you give her. Yesterday, we got our calendar. When I looked at it I almost started to cry. I kept telling myself-"self, you have NEVER cried at work-DON'T START NOW"!! That's the only reason I didn't! She said she could tell from the pictures that Collin looks so happy and safe and loved-that made me so happy. I hope that he always feels that he is surrounded by people that love him more than anything.I always worry that someday he will have "issues" or there will be a time when he will have questions about where he came from and why he was adopted and I guess I just realized how unprepared I really am to answer those questions. To me, he has always been here and he has always been mine. His story is an amazing journey that we travelled together. I hope when he is older that he can comprehend how wonderful it was and not see it as a bad thing because there was nothing bad about it. It has changed my life forever. Because of him I have learned to put someone before myself. I would do anything for him. I want him to have everything in life and to grow to be a good person. I hope I am doing the right things to give him the tools to become a good person. You don't want to spoil them too much or make them think they are better than everyone because mom and dad think they are the greatest. At the same time you want them to know mom and dad think they are the greatest-LOL! This parenting thing is a lot of pressure. If you mess up it's a pretty big deal.
I literally could spend hours just watching him. I had all kinds of things to get accomplished today and I got started but was sidetracked by Collin jumping off the bottom step so I got the video camera out. Then, he wanted to show off for the camera so he climbed to the top of the steps and came down facing forward and standing up. He always turns aroung and slides down on his belly. He would climb down to the bottom step and then jump off. He did it about a hundred more times and I didn't miss one of them!It's like everything he does is amazing and the best ever. I'm almost positive I am becoming one of those annoying mom's whose kid is the best and can do no wrong. Poor Collin...scarred for life by his crazy mother!
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Guatoberfest Cruise 2009
My soapbox about the Advent Conspiracy
I came across this video on another blog. I have to admit I only looked at it for entertainment value. I assumed with a title like that, it had to be some wacko conspiracy theory and who doesn't need a good laugh. Suprisingly enough it really touched me and made me think. It didn't grab my interest because of it's religious value, because that's not really my thing. I am not the type of person that flaunts religion or believes in pushing your beliefs onto others. It touched me because of it's human value and because it shows me how quickly I forget.
When we were in Guatemala it was truly a life changing experience for a myriad of reasons, only one of which was bringing home a baby! We saw poverty that we could never imagine in this country. I remember thinking when I was there that despite all of the stress of the situation, I was more at peace than I had ever felt in my life. Among other things, there was no pressure to have more...there was nothing to have. People just lived their lives. Families worked together, lived together in cramped housing-if they had a roof over their heads at all-and they were happy! We were forced to enjoy eachother without our "creature comforts" and I loved it. I now remember hoping that once we got home, I would never lose that idea that we don't really need much at all. I realized our society makes us think we need more but we really don't. And after watching the video it makes me realize that I have failed miserably.
I had made up my mind that in order to honor my new found attitude and our sons heritage, we would sponsor a Guatemalan family every year so that they could have food and heat and their children could go to school-things we take for granted on a daily basis. For some reason I can never seem to find the money to do that- BUT- I can find the money to buy coffee every day, sometimes several times a day, Collin will see a room full of gifts on Christmas morning, I can go out to eat, I can do whatever I want for the most part. My priorities have gone right back to where they were before I experienced Guatemala and it makes me sad. That is the reason that I am posting the video in a permenant spot on the blog, so that I am constantly reminded, not only during Christmas but all year to give PRESENCE to my friends and family not PRESENTS and to give back to something that I feel very strongly about. I don't write this to push Guatemalan charity or any charity but to encourage anyone reading this to slow down and take a look at your life and see what means the most to you and see where it takes you.
When we were in Guatemala it was truly a life changing experience for a myriad of reasons, only one of which was bringing home a baby! We saw poverty that we could never imagine in this country. I remember thinking when I was there that despite all of the stress of the situation, I was more at peace than I had ever felt in my life. Among other things, there was no pressure to have more...there was nothing to have. People just lived their lives. Families worked together, lived together in cramped housing-if they had a roof over their heads at all-and they were happy! We were forced to enjoy eachother without our "creature comforts" and I loved it. I now remember hoping that once we got home, I would never lose that idea that we don't really need much at all. I realized our society makes us think we need more but we really don't. And after watching the video it makes me realize that I have failed miserably.
I had made up my mind that in order to honor my new found attitude and our sons heritage, we would sponsor a Guatemalan family every year so that they could have food and heat and their children could go to school-things we take for granted on a daily basis. For some reason I can never seem to find the money to do that- BUT- I can find the money to buy coffee every day, sometimes several times a day, Collin will see a room full of gifts on Christmas morning, I can go out to eat, I can do whatever I want for the most part. My priorities have gone right back to where they were before I experienced Guatemala and it makes me sad. That is the reason that I am posting the video in a permenant spot on the blog, so that I am constantly reminded, not only during Christmas but all year to give PRESENCE to my friends and family not PRESENTS and to give back to something that I feel very strongly about. I don't write this to push Guatemalan charity or any charity but to encourage anyone reading this to slow down and take a look at your life and see what means the most to you and see where it takes you.
No comments:
Post a Comment