Thursday, April 22, 2010

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I was commenting on a friends blog yesterday that I feel really guilty about the fact that I can find time to get on Facebook but I can't seem to find the time to update the blog!! I tried to rationalize that I can facebook from my phone anytime but that's not true because I can post from my phone too- like I am now. It's definitley not as user friendly for typing but I guess short updates are better than no updates. I've managed to get so far behind that I don't even know where to begin!! The blog was supposed to chronicle Collin's life, kind of like a scrapbook but if I can't find time to blog how in the world would I scrapbook.

I think the problem is when I am home with Collin in the morning I feel bad if I'm on the computer because that is the only time I have with him. When I get home at night if I am on the computer I am neglecting Wyatt because that is our only time together. I've also found that I consistantly neglect myself- I don't exercise everyday like I should, I don't take time to eat or pack my lunch or really even cook anymore. I rush constantly and live on very little sleep and the "me" stuff is the first thing to go out the window when we are short on time-which seems to be always!

I guess that is the life of a mom. I want to be healthy and live long for Collin but I also love the quiet moments we can share together. It seems they are so few and far between and he is getting big so fast. Before I know it he will be in school and I'll never see him. He will have his friends and mama wont be mama anymore. It will be Mom or some other name that wont be said with the loving affection of the little boy who thinks his Mama is the best thing in the whole world. I'll wish we had these busy days back again so I guess I better quit whining and enjoy them!!

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Guatoberfest Cruise 2009

My soapbox about the Advent Conspiracy

I came across this video on another blog. I have to admit I only looked at it for entertainment value. I assumed with a title like that, it had to be some wacko conspiracy theory and who doesn't need a good laugh. Suprisingly enough it really touched me and made me think. It didn't grab my interest because of it's religious value, because that's not really my thing. I am not the type of person that flaunts religion or believes in pushing your beliefs onto others. It touched me because of it's human value and because it shows me how quickly I forget.

When we were in Guatemala it was truly a life changing experience for a myriad of reasons, only one of which was bringing home a baby! We saw poverty that we could never imagine in this country. I remember thinking when I was there that despite all of the stress of the situation, I was more at peace than I had ever felt in my life. Among other things, there was no pressure to have more...there was nothing to have. People just lived their lives. Families worked together, lived together in cramped housing-if they had a roof over their heads at all-and they were happy! We were forced to enjoy eachother without our "creature comforts" and I loved it. I now remember hoping that once we got home, I would never lose that idea that we don't really need much at all. I realized our society makes us think we need more but we really don't. And after watching the video it makes me realize that I have failed miserably.


I had made up my mind that in order to honor my new found attitude and our sons heritage, we would sponsor a Guatemalan family every year so that they could have food and heat and their children could go to school-things we take for granted on a daily basis. For some reason I can never seem to find the money to do that- BUT- I can find the money to buy coffee every day, sometimes several times a day, Collin will see a room full of gifts on Christmas morning, I can go out to eat, I can do whatever I want for the most part. My priorities have gone right back to where they were before I experienced Guatemala and it makes me sad. That is the reason that I am posting the video in a permenant spot on the blog, so that I am constantly reminded, not only during Christmas but all year to give PRESENCE to my friends and family not PRESENTS and to give back to something that I feel very strongly about. I don't write this to push Guatemalan charity or any charity but to encourage anyone reading this to slow down and take a look at your life and see what means the most to you and see where it takes you.

Advent Conspiracy